20th April 2007

uncertainty.

thats what i've been feeling for the past few weeks.

i will go mad soon.

AHHHHHHHH!!!!



ok i will be fine. i hope.

today is a bad day.

a very very very very bad day.

the weather is even more bad.

ok actually everything was just plain bad.

BAD!



i got into SIM.

as in a place in SIM.

not too sure if i will really be going there.

but at least i have been accepted.

and if i really go there, i'll start shool in May 2008.

so, i hope i don't have to resort to going there.



i should be sleeping.

there's choir practice tomorrow.

9.30 to 3 or 4.

take up my entire saturday.

hmph.

but it's not like i have other better things to do.

so i'll go for it.

and i will try not to be late.

an i will enjoy myself.

thats what i'm trying to convince myself to do.

argh.

this is bad.



i'm just going to go on and on and on.

going on about random stuff that pops into my mind.



i cant do sudoku anymore.

i think i became more dumb.

so vry dumb that i cant think logically anymore.

yes i'm going mad.



i want to watch a movie!!!!!!!

i shall soon.

i hope i can.

i shall save some money.

even though i dun spend much.

its not like i have alot to spend.

i have miserable life.

a very miserable one.

dun bother to ask why.

i hate my life.

i hate the way it is now.

well there are some good moments.

but the rest of it is bad.



i shall find a way to work in IMH.

i want to.

i dun care what my mum wants me to do anymore.

i hate the way she controls me.



why am i in such a bad mood?

arghhhhhhh.

ignore me.

ignore the miserable side of me.



i should get a life.

and i've been saying that ever since i stepped into JC.

or maybe even way before that.

not that it matters.



argh.



maybe i should just get some sleep.