tired.
so very very tired.
Friday, September 29, 2006
Friday, September 22, 2006
22nd September 2006
i loved today!!!
however today didnt start that well.
before i left the house, my mum smsed me to ask me to find her watch.
then i searched the house.
i called her to tell her that i couldnt find it.
she told me to search again.
then i went to search again.
after 5 mins, she called to tell me that the watch was in her pocket.
IN HER POCKET!
ok so i left the house after that.
i missed 19 and 81 and i didnt want to take 21 cos i would have to cross the overhead bridge.
i reached novena at about 12.30 i think.
then i walked out.
for a while i thot i would be able to remember the way.
then i forgot how to.
i felt so dumb.
i walked out.
nothing seemed familiar so i turned back.
and i realised that there is no where to go if i turned back, so i walked out again.
i wandered around and tried to find something familiar and after a while i realised where i was.
haha i seriously felt dumb.
anyway i think i was in the TB place for less than 20 mins.
compared to the previous appointment, it is so so so short.
and my next appointment is on 3rd of nov.
they really seem to know which days i dun need to go to school and when i'm free.
argh.
and they somewhat said me for reaching the place at that time.
they asked why i come so late when i dun need to go school.
i just kept quiet.
why i went so late? cos i need my sleep.
ok anyway after that i went to walk around in united square.
the shopping centre where i used to go for chinese tuition.
the place has changed alot.
nicer in fact.
then after walking thru the entire place i went back to whitesands and waited for val and QX.
sakae was fun.
really fun.
and after that went to jere's house and then went home.
joey, val and QX came over for a while and we chatted for a while and they went home.
i had alot of fun.
reminded me of the times when we always went home as a huge group.
those were the days.
*everyone is waiting for soemthing in their lives. i'm just waiting for you. what are you waiting for?*
however today didnt start that well.
before i left the house, my mum smsed me to ask me to find her watch.
then i searched the house.
i called her to tell her that i couldnt find it.
she told me to search again.
then i went to search again.
after 5 mins, she called to tell me that the watch was in her pocket.
IN HER POCKET!
ok so i left the house after that.
i missed 19 and 81 and i didnt want to take 21 cos i would have to cross the overhead bridge.
i reached novena at about 12.30 i think.
then i walked out.
for a while i thot i would be able to remember the way.
then i forgot how to.
i felt so dumb.
i walked out.
nothing seemed familiar so i turned back.
and i realised that there is no where to go if i turned back, so i walked out again.
i wandered around and tried to find something familiar and after a while i realised where i was.
haha i seriously felt dumb.
anyway i think i was in the TB place for less than 20 mins.
compared to the previous appointment, it is so so so short.
and my next appointment is on 3rd of nov.
they really seem to know which days i dun need to go to school and when i'm free.
argh.
and they somewhat said me for reaching the place at that time.
they asked why i come so late when i dun need to go school.
i just kept quiet.
why i went so late? cos i need my sleep.
ok anyway after that i went to walk around in united square.
the shopping centre where i used to go for chinese tuition.
the place has changed alot.
nicer in fact.
then after walking thru the entire place i went back to whitesands and waited for val and QX.
sakae was fun.
really fun.
and after that went to jere's house and then went home.
joey, val and QX came over for a while and we chatted for a while and they went home.
i had alot of fun.
reminded me of the times when we always went home as a huge group.
those were the days.
*everyone is waiting for soemthing in their lives. i'm just waiting for you. what are you waiting for?*
Thursday, September 21, 2006
21st September 2006
ok i didnt mug alot.
i dun feel guilty about.
i spent a few hours staring at the maths paper 1.
thats about it.
i was blog hopping. (if there is such a phrase)
i went from one blog to another.
read many many blogs.
realised many many new things.
thought about many many other things.
i realised how fragile some things are.
i suddenly feel like sitting on a swing.
they should make one in the playground here.
anyway, i just realised stuff.
happy memories.
thats nice isnt it?
so many memories that are hard to forget.
it seems like only yesterday.
somehow.
i miss those days.
but i have to move on rite.
i'm starting to think too much again.
argh.
i dun feel guilty about.
i spent a few hours staring at the maths paper 1.
thats about it.
i was blog hopping. (if there is such a phrase)
i went from one blog to another.
read many many blogs.
realised many many new things.
thought about many many other things.
i realised how fragile some things are.
i suddenly feel like sitting on a swing.
they should make one in the playground here.
anyway, i just realised stuff.
happy memories.
thats nice isnt it?
so many memories that are hard to forget.
it seems like only yesterday.
somehow.
i miss those days.
but i have to move on rite.
i'm starting to think too much again.
argh.
21st September 2006
i'm stuck at home with nothing to do.
well except to study and study some more.
i should continue to mug soon.
when i feel like it.
argh. my daddy just called to check if i'm studying.
sometimes i wonder if he knows how torturing it is to study continuously.
ok. i shall go mug. since i'm going out tmr.
have to go for check up tmr.
i really hope i rmb how to get there.
haha.
i'm that forgetful.
i shall go figure out and hopefully i wont get lost.
sometimes i wonder how 2 people can feel the same way about someone.
ok i dun make sense.
ok i'm curious about who STILL reads my blog.
haha ok. so tag after reading.
that was random.
okies! back to my mugging world!
well except to study and study some more.
i should continue to mug soon.
when i feel like it.
argh. my daddy just called to check if i'm studying.
sometimes i wonder if he knows how torturing it is to study continuously.
ok. i shall go mug. since i'm going out tmr.
have to go for check up tmr.
i really hope i rmb how to get there.
haha.
i'm that forgetful.
i shall go figure out and hopefully i wont get lost.
sometimes i wonder how 2 people can feel the same way about someone.
ok i dun make sense.
ok i'm curious about who STILL reads my blog.
haha ok. so tag after reading.
that was random.
okies! back to my mugging world!
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
19th September 2006
PRELIMS ARE OVER!!!!!
----------
i reached home happy today.
but as usual my day was spoilt.
it left me angry and hurt at the same time.
angry that i lost my temper again.
hurt that she makes me feel like she really doesnt care.
i went down to swim.
each lap i swam, i swam as fast as i could.
hoping that everything would go away.
hoping that the anger, the hurt and the tears will disappear.
but they didnt.
how naive i was.
you know what, i wanna stop trying to please you because nothing i do ever satisfies you.
nothing is ever good enough.
and all i want is to make u happy.
thats all i really want.
----------
enough about all that.
cant wait for friday!
haha.
the big big gathering =p
but i have to go for check up before that.
hmph.
and i also wanna go shopping before that.
as in before the gathering.
haha ok.
well, at least i have something nice to look forward to.
----------
i reached home happy today.
but as usual my day was spoilt.
it left me angry and hurt at the same time.
angry that i lost my temper again.
hurt that she makes me feel like she really doesnt care.
i went down to swim.
each lap i swam, i swam as fast as i could.
hoping that everything would go away.
hoping that the anger, the hurt and the tears will disappear.
but they didnt.
how naive i was.
you know what, i wanna stop trying to please you because nothing i do ever satisfies you.
nothing is ever good enough.
and all i want is to make u happy.
thats all i really want.
----------
enough about all that.
cant wait for friday!
haha.
the big big gathering =p
but i have to go for check up before that.
hmph.
and i also wanna go shopping before that.
as in before the gathering.
haha ok.
well, at least i have something nice to look forward to.
Monday, September 18, 2006
18th September 2006
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
maths was super bad today.
cant get over it.
and there's geog tmr.
and ECONS!
hmph.
i give up studying for econs.
i shall focus on geog.
i think i can.
i need to scream.
argh.
have to wake up early tmr.
after so long of waking up late.
haha.
and i'm gaining weight.
thats scary.
hais.
i shall go study.
more geog.
maths was super bad today.
cant get over it.
and there's geog tmr.
and ECONS!
hmph.
i give up studying for econs.
i shall focus on geog.
i think i can.
i need to scream.
argh.
have to wake up early tmr.
after so long of waking up late.
haha.
and i'm gaining weight.
thats scary.
hais.
i shall go study.
more geog.
Friday, September 15, 2006
15th September 2006
i received this email from izyan. some really interesting questions (:
----------
Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?
Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?
Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are: I love you, Sorry and help me
Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?
Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?
Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?
Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?
Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?
----------
true to a certain extent. judge for yourself (:
i cant seem to sit down and study today.
the weather was perfect for sleeping.
heehee.
i wanted to swim but it was too cold.
so i went to the poolside and studied with lappie.
for about 2 hours until we both got too distracted to study and she left.
haha it was too cold downstairs.
but peaceful in a way (:
okies i shall attempt to study soon (:
----------
Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?
Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?
Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are: I love you, Sorry and help me
Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?
Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?
Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?
Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?
Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?
----------
true to a certain extent. judge for yourself (:
i cant seem to sit down and study today.
the weather was perfect for sleeping.
heehee.
i wanted to swim but it was too cold.
so i went to the poolside and studied with lappie.
for about 2 hours until we both got too distracted to study and she left.
haha it was too cold downstairs.
but peaceful in a way (:
okies i shall attempt to study soon (:
Thursday, September 14, 2006
14th September 2006
NO MORE EXAMS FOR THIS WEEK!
haha.
i can wake up later tomorrow!
my daddy's comment to that was "you are already waking up quite late these few days..."
haha quite true.
i think i will find it hard to wake up at 6 plus to go for lessons. =p
the 3 papers that i have taken so far were super horrible.
maths wasnt that bad i guess.
it was geog that was horrible.
somehow i did alot of climate questions when i didnt study for climate.
sound quite screwed up rite.
but i spotted the right coastal question!
heehee but i was too tired to finish writing about sea cliff retreat.
and there wasnt really enough time.
i spent my first hour doing 2 DRQs.
when we were supposed to limit ourselves to 18mins to each DRQ.
then i spent half an hour trying to complete 3 DRQs.
sounds wrong rite.
then i spent the 1 hour plus doing my 2 essays.
45 mins with the coastal one and 30 mins to do the rocks and landforms one.
i had totally no idea wat the question for the rocks and landforms was asking for.
so i crapped my way thru.
remaining time was spent trying to figure out how to answer the remaining DRQs that weren't completed.
it wasnt completed even when i handed them in.
due to a horrible headache i was having.
but i have no regrets and i'm quite looking forward to the human geog paper.
becos i really studied hard for it.
heehee.
the econs essay was full of macroeconomics.
it was the first time i wrote so much.
i hope it pays off.
obviously quantity isnt everything but i think i had some content at least.
haha i just pray for the best.
maths was fun in a way.
for once i wasnt really panicking until the last half an hour.
i hope i didnt make any careless mistakes.
ok i'm looking forward to next weeks papers.
then it'll be over.
but its just prelims.
there's still the horrible A levels in less than 2 months.
ARGH.
today is my daddy and mummy's wedding anniversary.
and to celebrate it, they brought us to jumbo seafood at east coast for dinner.
it was yummy.
and i'm so full!
heehee.
i'm tired but i dun wanna sleep.
heehee.
to everyone, take care and all the best for the remaining papers (:
haha.
i can wake up later tomorrow!
my daddy's comment to that was "you are already waking up quite late these few days..."
haha quite true.
i think i will find it hard to wake up at 6 plus to go for lessons. =p
the 3 papers that i have taken so far were super horrible.
maths wasnt that bad i guess.
it was geog that was horrible.
somehow i did alot of climate questions when i didnt study for climate.
sound quite screwed up rite.
but i spotted the right coastal question!
heehee but i was too tired to finish writing about sea cliff retreat.
and there wasnt really enough time.
i spent my first hour doing 2 DRQs.
when we were supposed to limit ourselves to 18mins to each DRQ.
then i spent half an hour trying to complete 3 DRQs.
sounds wrong rite.
then i spent the 1 hour plus doing my 2 essays.
45 mins with the coastal one and 30 mins to do the rocks and landforms one.
i had totally no idea wat the question for the rocks and landforms was asking for.
so i crapped my way thru.
remaining time was spent trying to figure out how to answer the remaining DRQs that weren't completed.
it wasnt completed even when i handed them in.
due to a horrible headache i was having.
but i have no regrets and i'm quite looking forward to the human geog paper.
becos i really studied hard for it.
heehee.
the econs essay was full of macroeconomics.
it was the first time i wrote so much.
i hope it pays off.
obviously quantity isnt everything but i think i had some content at least.
haha i just pray for the best.
maths was fun in a way.
for once i wasnt really panicking until the last half an hour.
i hope i didnt make any careless mistakes.
ok i'm looking forward to next weeks papers.
then it'll be over.
but its just prelims.
there's still the horrible A levels in less than 2 months.
ARGH.
today is my daddy and mummy's wedding anniversary.
and to celebrate it, they brought us to jumbo seafood at east coast for dinner.
it was yummy.
and i'm so full!
heehee.
i'm tired but i dun wanna sleep.
heehee.
to everyone, take care and all the best for the remaining papers (:
Sunday, September 10, 2006
10th September 2006
i didnt study much today.
i was trying to finish a novel.
One Perfect Rose by Mary Jo Putney.
a wonderfully written story.
it was a love story with an amazing storyline and an unexpected ending.
thats what i love about these kind of novels.
their unexpected ending.
for movies too.
i cant stand movies with no endings.
haha i should stop with my nonsense.
i was trying to finish a novel.
One Perfect Rose by Mary Jo Putney.
a wonderfully written story.
it was a love story with an amazing storyline and an unexpected ending.
thats what i love about these kind of novels.
their unexpected ending.
for movies too.
i cant stand movies with no endings.
haha i should stop with my nonsense.
10th September 2006
lets see.
tomorrow is the last day to study for econs essay.
i need a miracle.
a really huge one.
haha.
and what am i left with to study for?
hydrology.
climate and atmosphere.
maths.
doesnt seem like much.
but i really dun love climate and hydro alot.
its better than econs though.
but it's 2 really boring core topics.
ahhh!
i'll try to memorise every single detail.
prelims will be over on the 19th of september.
thats good motivation.
i think.
or maybe i should say i choose to believe.
i choose to delude myself.
as of always.
tomorrow is the last day to study for econs essay.
i need a miracle.
a really huge one.
haha.
and what am i left with to study for?
hydrology.
climate and atmosphere.
maths.
doesnt seem like much.
but i really dun love climate and hydro alot.
its better than econs though.
but it's 2 really boring core topics.
ahhh!
i'll try to memorise every single detail.
prelims will be over on the 19th of september.
thats good motivation.
i think.
or maybe i should say i choose to believe.
i choose to delude myself.
as of always.
Friday, September 01, 2006
1st September 2006
10 more days to prelims.
i'm so dead.
i dun care.
for now.
i'm tired for no particular reason.
hais.
went back to coral yesterday.
i realised so many things.
too many in fact.
i always thought the best years of my education was in secondary school.
they were my worst years too.
i thought i had many friends.
but i was wrong.
i thought i built many friendships.
but i was wrong.
i thought i had wonderful memories.
but i was wrong.
becos they're all gone.
i went with ben.
we walked into school.
it was empty.
everyone was in the hall.
then we went backstage to say hi to val and joey.
and we went back down.
i saw ling miin and doreen.
i didnt expect to see them.
but i did.
and i didnt expect to talk to them.
and they didnt.
they said hi and walked away.
so typically them isnt it.
didnt see anyone who i wanted to see.
i should have stayed home to mug.
but the main thing that i want to say today is that i'm grateful for the "friends" i have.
in inverted commas cos you arent really friends, but more than friends.
haha cannot think of the word. =p
for quite a while, my msn nick has been "i just wanna say..."
so today, i shall type out all the things that i wanna say to those special ppl in my life!
in no particular order ( actually those from coral first la huh...)
to JERE
i just wanna say thanks for everything! for bearing with my nonsense and listening to my complains. and that i'll always be there for u no matter what happens. we'll always be the 2 gere/jere =p
to KHALIS
i just wanna say thanks too. for ur madnesss in choir. where are u ar? u seem to have disappeared for a long long time. and thanks for the advice u have sometimes given me! though u havent in a long time.
to JAMIE
i just wanna say U WERE SUPPOSED TO ORGANISE A PIZZA PARTY! but ya i having prelims soon ar... so pizza party another time. thanks for the crazy things u've done. u always quiet quiet one but u are amusings at times, maybe all the time =p
to JOEY
i just wanna say i enjoyed that one year in coral with u. sometimes i hope to be back there schooling again but everything happens for a reason. soon u'll be the only reason why i will go back to coral but we will meet up often okies? dun think too much and u better start mugging!
to VAL
i just wanna say..........haha i dunno how to start. you've been great. as a friend, more like a sister in fact. THANKS for everything. the letters that u write are wonderful pieces of encouragement i guess. haha. do well for prelims and Os and we'll enjoy after that =p
to QIU XUAN
i just wanna say you are my "idol". you mug so hard that i make u my role model. i aim to be like u for the next few months. 2 months actually. haha. i will nv forget ur loudness. haha but i'm sure u'll do well for Os. i guess. i'll make myself free on ur day! haha.
to JEROME
i just wanna say thanks for offering a listening ear at the most unexpected time. haha. i will be a bit bitchy as u suggested. but thanks anyway.
to SAM
i just wanna say you made a difference to my secondary sch life! thanks =)
to CHUYUN
i just wanna say you were a wonderful friend whom i nv ever regretted having!
to anyone else who i havent mentioned---to those who have made a difference.
i just wanna say THANKS
to anyone who i have offended--- i shouldnt put names.
i just wanna say i'm sorry, i guess.
now to the jc ppl. hmmm this is gonna be hard.
to QING! aka my wonderful cousin.
i just wanna say thank you for eveything. from the first day of schooling today until today. i still rmb u were introducing me to all ur sec sch friends. =p haha.
to LAPPIE
i just wanna say you're a great person to be with. we have so much in common that i find it amazing. haha. thanks for everything.
to IZYAN
i just wanna say you've been great company. thanks!
to ABIGAIL
i just wanna say thanks for staying back with me for most of the time =) haha you're a really nice person to talk to anyway.
to AIK BOON/himbo
i just wanna say you're a true blue himbo. and ur pics are nice =p
to J. HUI
i just wanna say thanks for everything. i shant repeat wat i told u. haha but its thanks to u that i'm doing this!
to CHERILYN
i just wanna say thanks for everything. it's been great having u around =)
to RUI HONG
i just wanna say thanks for all the time u spent talking to me when i was bored. =p
to the CHOIR
i just wanna say i have no regrets joining it. =)
hmmm
did i miss out anything?
**thinking**
i dun think so rite.
oh to my FAMILY.
i just wanna say I LOVE YOU!!
haha ok.
thats all for now.
it's one long entry.
i should get rid of the habit of blogging and coming online.
soon.
REAL SOON.
haha okies. bye!
i'm so dead.
i dun care.
for now.
i'm tired for no particular reason.
hais.
went back to coral yesterday.
i realised so many things.
too many in fact.
i always thought the best years of my education was in secondary school.
they were my worst years too.
i thought i had many friends.
but i was wrong.
i thought i built many friendships.
but i was wrong.
i thought i had wonderful memories.
but i was wrong.
becos they're all gone.
i went with ben.
we walked into school.
it was empty.
everyone was in the hall.
then we went backstage to say hi to val and joey.
and we went back down.
i saw ling miin and doreen.
i didnt expect to see them.
but i did.
and i didnt expect to talk to them.
and they didnt.
they said hi and walked away.
so typically them isnt it.
didnt see anyone who i wanted to see.
i should have stayed home to mug.
but the main thing that i want to say today is that i'm grateful for the "friends" i have.
in inverted commas cos you arent really friends, but more than friends.
haha cannot think of the word. =p
for quite a while, my msn nick has been "i just wanna say..."
so today, i shall type out all the things that i wanna say to those special ppl in my life!
in no particular order ( actually those from coral first la huh...)
to JERE
i just wanna say thanks for everything! for bearing with my nonsense and listening to my complains. and that i'll always be there for u no matter what happens. we'll always be the 2 gere/jere =p
to KHALIS
i just wanna say thanks too. for ur madnesss in choir. where are u ar? u seem to have disappeared for a long long time. and thanks for the advice u have sometimes given me! though u havent in a long time.
to JAMIE
i just wanna say U WERE SUPPOSED TO ORGANISE A PIZZA PARTY! but ya i having prelims soon ar... so pizza party another time. thanks for the crazy things u've done. u always quiet quiet one but u are amusings at times, maybe all the time =p
to JOEY
i just wanna say i enjoyed that one year in coral with u. sometimes i hope to be back there schooling again but everything happens for a reason. soon u'll be the only reason why i will go back to coral but we will meet up often okies? dun think too much and u better start mugging!
to VAL
i just wanna say..........haha i dunno how to start. you've been great. as a friend, more like a sister in fact. THANKS for everything. the letters that u write are wonderful pieces of encouragement i guess. haha. do well for prelims and Os and we'll enjoy after that =p
to QIU XUAN
i just wanna say you are my "idol". you mug so hard that i make u my role model. i aim to be like u for the next few months. 2 months actually. haha. i will nv forget ur loudness. haha but i'm sure u'll do well for Os. i guess. i'll make myself free on ur day! haha.
to JEROME
i just wanna say thanks for offering a listening ear at the most unexpected time. haha. i will be a bit bitchy as u suggested. but thanks anyway.
to SAM
i just wanna say you made a difference to my secondary sch life! thanks =)
to CHUYUN
i just wanna say you were a wonderful friend whom i nv ever regretted having!
to anyone else who i havent mentioned---to those who have made a difference.
i just wanna say THANKS
to anyone who i have offended--- i shouldnt put names.
i just wanna say i'm sorry, i guess.
now to the jc ppl. hmmm this is gonna be hard.
to QING! aka my wonderful cousin.
i just wanna say thank you for eveything. from the first day of schooling today until today. i still rmb u were introducing me to all ur sec sch friends. =p haha.
to LAPPIE
i just wanna say you're a great person to be with. we have so much in common that i find it amazing. haha. thanks for everything.
to IZYAN
i just wanna say you've been great company. thanks!
to ABIGAIL
i just wanna say thanks for staying back with me for most of the time =) haha you're a really nice person to talk to anyway.
to AIK BOON/himbo
i just wanna say you're a true blue himbo. and ur pics are nice =p
to J. HUI
i just wanna say thanks for everything. i shant repeat wat i told u. haha but its thanks to u that i'm doing this!
to CHERILYN
i just wanna say thanks for everything. it's been great having u around =)
to RUI HONG
i just wanna say thanks for all the time u spent talking to me when i was bored. =p
to the CHOIR
i just wanna say i have no regrets joining it. =)
hmmm
did i miss out anything?
**thinking**
i dun think so rite.
oh to my FAMILY.
i just wanna say I LOVE YOU!!
haha ok.
thats all for now.
it's one long entry.
i should get rid of the habit of blogging and coming online.
soon.
REAL SOON.
haha okies. bye!
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