1st September 2006

10 more days to prelims.

i'm so dead.

i dun care.

for now.

i'm tired for no particular reason.

hais.

went back to coral yesterday.

i realised so many things.

too many in fact.

i always thought the best years of my education was in secondary school.

they were my worst years too.

i thought i had many friends.

but i was wrong.

i thought i built many friendships.

but i was wrong.

i thought i had wonderful memories.

but i was wrong.

becos they're all gone.

i went with ben.

we walked into school.

it was empty.

everyone was in the hall.

then we went backstage to say hi to val and joey.

and we went back down.

i saw ling miin and doreen.

i didnt expect to see them.

but i did.

and i didnt expect to talk to them.

and they didnt.

they said hi and walked away.

so typically them isnt it.

didnt see anyone who i wanted to see.

i should have stayed home to mug.

but the main thing that i want to say today is that i'm grateful for the "friends" i have.

in inverted commas cos you arent really friends, but more than friends.

haha cannot think of the word. =p

for quite a while, my msn nick has been "i just wanna say..."

so today, i shall type out all the things that i wanna say to those special ppl in my life!

in no particular order ( actually those from coral first la huh...)

to JERE
i just wanna say thanks for everything! for bearing with my nonsense and listening to my complains. and that i'll always be there for u no matter what happens. we'll always be the 2 gere/jere =p

to KHALIS
i just wanna say thanks too. for ur madnesss in choir. where are u ar? u seem to have disappeared for a long long time. and thanks for the advice u have sometimes given me! though u havent in a long time.

to JAMIE
i just wanna say U WERE SUPPOSED TO ORGANISE A PIZZA PARTY! but ya i having prelims soon ar... so pizza party another time. thanks for the crazy things u've done. u always quiet quiet one but u are amusings at times, maybe all the time =p

to JOEY
i just wanna say i enjoyed that one year in coral with u. sometimes i hope to be back there schooling again but everything happens for a reason. soon u'll be the only reason why i will go back to coral but we will meet up often okies? dun think too much and u better start mugging!

to VAL
i just wanna say..........haha i dunno how to start. you've been great. as a friend, more like a sister in fact. THANKS for everything. the letters that u write are wonderful pieces of encouragement i guess. haha. do well for prelims and Os and we'll enjoy after that =p

to QIU XUAN
i just wanna say you are my "idol". you mug so hard that i make u my role model. i aim to be like u for the next few months. 2 months actually. haha. i will nv forget ur loudness. haha but i'm sure u'll do well for Os. i guess. i'll make myself free on ur day! haha.

to JEROME
i just wanna say thanks for offering a listening ear at the most unexpected time. haha. i will be a bit bitchy as u suggested. but thanks anyway.

to SAM
i just wanna say you made a difference to my secondary sch life! thanks =)

to CHUYUN
i just wanna say you were a wonderful friend whom i nv ever regretted having!

to anyone else who i havent mentioned---to those who have made a difference.
i just wanna say THANKS

to anyone who i have offended--- i shouldnt put names.
i just wanna say i'm sorry, i guess.

now to the jc ppl. hmmm this is gonna be hard.

to QING! aka my wonderful cousin.
i just wanna say thank you for eveything. from the first day of schooling today until today. i still rmb u were introducing me to all ur sec sch friends. =p haha.

to LAPPIE
i just wanna say you're a great person to be with. we have so much in common that i find it amazing. haha. thanks for everything.

to IZYAN
i just wanna say you've been great company. thanks!

to ABIGAIL
i just wanna say thanks for staying back with me for most of the time =) haha you're a really nice person to talk to anyway.

to AIK BOON/himbo
i just wanna say you're a true blue himbo. and ur pics are nice =p

to J. HUI
i just wanna say thanks for everything. i shant repeat wat i told u. haha but its thanks to u that i'm doing this!

to CHERILYN
i just wanna say thanks for everything. it's been great having u around =)

to RUI HONG
i just wanna say thanks for all the time u spent talking to me when i was bored. =p

to the CHOIR
i just wanna say i have no regrets joining it. =)

hmmm
did i miss out anything?

**thinking**

i dun think so rite.

oh to my FAMILY.
i just wanna say I LOVE YOU!!

haha ok.

thats all for now.

it's one long entry.

i should get rid of the habit of blogging and coming online.

soon.

REAL SOON.

haha okies. bye!