Thursday, March 22, 2007

22nd March 2007

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

i cant change my application. as in i cant add an essay which i refused to write when i was applying.

I FEEL SO STUPID.

STUPID!

argh.

and i lost the stupid application number for the NTU thing.

GERALDINE TAN WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!!!

argh.

i feel so disorganised. i feel so messy. i feel so dumb. i feel so absentminded.

i'm getting from bad to worse.

and if i cant get into a university, it'll be entirely my fault for ignoring the fact that i have bad results and i still refused to write that stupid essay.

argh.

tell me that i'm so freaking stupid!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!











ok. i shall not get angry.

argh.

i cant help it.

pissed.

argh.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

20th March 2007

friendster horoscope for the day
CANCER
You are well known for having a quick mind, but today you'll encounter someone who could teach you a thing or two -- and you should take advantage of a lesson if it's offered! Today, taking on the role of student will be not only rewarding but also fun. Your mind is eager for new input, and you are open to coming up with new, better ways to do things. Listen attentively and do not be embarrassed to ask questions.

hahahaha. i didn know i had a quick mind. i thot i'm slow.

BBQ ON SATURDAY!!!! yay cant wait! been a long long tme since i went for a bbq at pasir ris park. =P

i shall buy new slippers. (:

Monday, March 19, 2007

19th March 2007

friendster horoscope for today!
CANCER
It might really bug you that sometimes the people in power know nothing about what they are doing, but this is a fact of life. The sooner you come to grips with this sad truth, the happier you will be -- especially today, when a certain dumb decision by a higher-up tempts you to say something injudicious. But the universe cautions you against impetuousness right now. Give your temper some time to cool off before you create any friction between yourself and an authority figure.

its so amazing. there's actually an authority figure in my life now! haha. i can figure out who actually. =p anyway nothing bad happened today. so the horoscope is not true. no i should say it doesnt apply to me.

things are different in the house now. its quiet, most of the time. and no one cleans the house. no one cooks dinner. no one to do all the house stuff. i miss my mum!!! but i'm getting used to it. though it is only for a week. but its tiring to work and come home with chores to do. ok i shall stop complaining.

haha thats what i always do rite...

work work work! i can't wait for the weekend. ok maybe i shall look forward to wednesday first. but qingqing not going to work! hmph. then i have to take bus. then i have to take lunch alone. then i have to go for lessons alone. then i also have to go home alone. ALONE!!! hmph. so i havent decided if i want to work on wednesday. haha. but i think i'll work. i cant stand the idea of staying at home alone.

i miss doing so many things!

ok. i shall watch my TV now!

take care everyone! (:

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

13th March 2007

i keep thinking of random stuff to post.

i have sat in 16 different places/seats ever since i started working in the office.

AMAZING RITE?

beocs i dun have an allocated seat and i have to sit at various locations. so i will use the seats of ppl who are on leave or are sick.

16 different seats.

and i think it will continue going up soon.

13th March 2007

why are we talking thru the tagbox???????

haha. so funny.
Friendsters hororscope for the day

CANCER

The Bottom Line
Don't be afraid to speak the truth, and don't dumb-down your language unnecessarily.

In Detail
You can use language to obscure what you truly mean (but are too afraid to say), or you can use it to elucidate exactly what you mean. The choice is yours, but it would be a shame to waste your excellent verbal skills on miscommunication. Speak to people in a way that will get your meaning across. Don't be afraid to speak the truth, and don't dumb-down your language unnecessarily.

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i find it amusing.

13th March 2007

my life is going down.

its getting worse as each day passes.

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

work was HORRIBLE today.

HORRIBLE. BAD. STUPID. UNBEARABLE.

just CRAP.

argh.

its stupid that i sort of get the blame when i wasnt given proper instructions yesterday. and the fact that the person wasnt there didnt help. she cant expect me to know all the GL codes by heart to tell that that GL code was wrong. and dun blame me for not asking.

argh.

ok its simple task and its ok if she asks me to do it again.

i just couldnt stand the fact that she blamed me. though its also partially my fault. ah! crap. its over.

i kept doing stuff wrongly today.

so today was a pretty screwed up day.

and i had to train all the way back alone today.

boon lay to pasir ris.

the only good thing was that i managed to buy 3 ear studs and also borrowed 2 more books.

this year, all the good things seem to come in small portions while the bad stuff all come in big packages. and more bad things are happening than good things. i shant bother to list down all the bad and good stuff. it'll just go on and on. ok maybe it started happening a long time ago. maybe nothing good will ever happen to me ever again. I NEED A HUGE MIRACLE.

i lead a miserable life.

a very miserable one.

maybe i just need to change my life.

WHATEVER.

japanese lessons tomorrow. the one and only thing i look forward to.

i think i make myself sound sad. i'm just angry. i think it'll pass soon.

*SCREAMS*

Saturday, March 10, 2007

10th March 2007

went for NUS open house today. i found out more things about what i want to take. and i so want to go there now. haha. and there are so many interesting things to learn! and i met many ppl. unexpected ppl.

THANKS VAL FOR THE COMPANY!!

i cant stand hospitals. its a sad place. well not all of it. but still its a sad place. and because of that, i really admire doctors and nurses to be able to face this kind of environment everyday. there are good times i suppose. haha and to think i want to have a profession in the social work area.

i'm talking rubbish. i dun even think i make sense.

too tired probably.

going to smu tmr! not really the place i wanna study but just go la. =p

the weekend is passing too quickly. its a bad thing.









3 hopes.
one - for my grandma to get well
two - for me to get into nus
three - for everyone to be happy
(:





*screams* (>.<)

did i mention i feel so stupid now.
just stupid.
argh

*screams*

9th March 2007

i'm bored.

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Friday, March 09, 2007

9th March 2007

time to blog!

the week is almost over! no more work! for the week that is. but there's work already piling up for me to do on monday ): its ok. i'm earning money. the only motivation. the bad thing is that i cant spend the money. argh.

open house tmr. with val (: if she is ok. can't wait!

i think i'm getting used to train rides. haha.

i cant think of what to blog. i'm not thinking. i havent been thinking. sound so stupid.

soon i'll have to choose courses to study in the university. and it'll be another traumatising experience. i'll be hoping for good news. not like there has been any. for a long long time.

i havent been sleeping well. something is wrong.

i shall stop complaining.

but i cant do anything else rite?

haha.

i'm in love with the song fly away. by corrinne may. it took me a while to understand the lyrics though. but its a really nice song (:











my mind is blank.

9th March 2007

haha this slide show thing is fun! =p haha
took me so long to realise that its nice.
some of prom photos!
and i'll be back with more slide shows!
haha.


Tuesday, March 06, 2007

6th March 2007

second post of the day.

i realised that the letter was on the dining table.

so many letters. one from SMU. another 2 from NTU. one from valerie.

valerie. i dunno why u put the letter like that. its so amusing. haha. my dad actually asked me why am i receiving a top secret letter from the bank. and he also commented on the handwriting. i cannot understand why there are so many envelopes. first i was thinking. wah val write so much ah.. then i open one envelope to find another envelope. and it still felt thick. i was thinking maybe 2 pages? then i open again to find another envelope! like opening birthday present can. haha. and the 3rd envelope was it. maybe it took so long cos it was huge.

I'M BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

there are no nice shows today.

i shall continue to read the da vinci code. it took me so long to get started on it. now i'm addicted to it. i'll read like a few chapters before i sleep. dan brown has a nice way of writing. i want more books!
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

i'm sorry for all the rubbish i'm blogging about now. dun read if u find it annoying ok. =p
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

val i'm trying to do what u wrote on the letter. its hard. its like a scar that can never be removed. a memory that can never be erased. maybe u would see it as a minor thing. but its different for me i guess. haha. i'm trying. trying to forget everything. ok maybe not everything. =p but i'm me after all. you know how i am. haha.

haha enough nonsense. another day of work tmr. i'm sooo looking forward to japanese class tmr! oh and i hope i can get into NUS **cross fingers**

tmr will be a better day!

rite. like who am i trying to kid.

haha. it will be. cos i want it to be. ((:

6th March 2007

just got back from work! a long hour on the train. maybe longer than that cos the train was exceptionally slow at the beginning. we were sitting in the train, i was looking at ppl while qingqing slept. the train started getting more crowded as we went on. i was looking around then i saw this lady. she looked pregnant but i wasnt too sure if she was. haha so my question is how do u differentiate a pregnant lady from a lady who just has a huge tummy? it would be embarrassing if someone were to give up their seat to a lady who is not pregnant but looks pregnant. you get what i mean. then i woke qingqing up just to ask her. =p and we concluded that it was not a pregnant lady because she was wearing heels (not that high but still heels) and she was carrying heavy stuff.

there is a blue black on my hand. ok on my arm. why? because i bumped onto the wall last nite. [pig tan is laughing while i'm typing] because i was rushing to record the show. i feel so clumsy and stupid. cos it hurts. hmph. all pig tan's fault! never remind me =p haha. no one else to blame.

[pig tan is now attempting to swallow a mouthful of ice cream. so she is suddenly quiet.]

VALERIE!! i finally received your letter! but its with my dad now. so i'll read it later (: after like almost a month can! tsktsk. i'll remember to include stamps the next time round.

ok i shall continue to blog again later if i have anything else to add. i shall restart the com first. =p

Monday, March 05, 2007

5th March 2006

3rd post in 3 hours?

ok i'm bored. and waiting for desperate housewives to start.

found something amusing.

here it is.

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"35 one word answers"
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You. Can. Only. Type. ONE. Word.

Not as easy as you might think.

1. Where is your cell phone?
-- table
2. Yourboyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife?
-- none
3. Your hair?
-- long
4. Your mother?
-- out
5. Your father
-- out
6. Your favorite thing?
-- chocolate!
7. Your dream last night?
-- forgotten
8. Your favorite drink?
-- coke
9. Your dream car?
-- Volkswagon!
10. The room you are in?
-- study
11. Your ex?
-- forgotten
12. Your fear?
-- imperfection
13. What do you want to be in 10years
-- successful
14. Who did you hang out with lastnight?
-- family
15. What you're not?
-- attached =p
16. Muffins?
-- chocolate
17. One of your wish list items?
-- happiness
19. The last thing you did?
-- talked
20. What are you wearing?
-- clothes?
21. Your tv?
-- here
22. Your pet?
-- none
23. Your computer?
-- none
24. Your life?
-- average
25. Your mood?
-- average
27. What are you thinking about rightnow?
-- this.
28. You are always?
-- me!
29. Your work?
-- admin
30. Summer?
-- always
31. Your relationship status?
-- single
32. Your favorite colour?
-- pink
33. When is the last time you laughed?
-- just.
34. Last time you cried?
-- friday
35. School?
-- working!

ok if u realised. there is no 26! haha.

ok desperate housewives has started!

YAY!

5th March 2005

there are so many nice shows now!

shows like ugly betty which is nice.

and so many of my favourite shows.

like amazing race, rob and amber are great. love them.

and there's desperate housewives tonight! another favourite of mine.

and super nanny is back with a new season.

i'm addicted to tv.

ok actually i'm not that bad. rite? =p haha.

5th March 2005

*SCREAMS*

i choose to forget the results and just remember all the good times i've had in MJC.

next step is to find somewhere to study. which would be hard becos of the number of choices i have. but whatever it is, i'll still be sticking with what i want (or should i say what i wanted)

yes. thats all i'm going to say about the end of my entire JC life. haha.

I'VE TAKEN MY VERY LAST CAMBRIDGE EXAM!!!

and like the previous time i didnt do well. but who cares. it's over!

a big thank you to
-lappie (for giving me tissues, haha, for being u!)
-abigail
-isabelle and kaili (for that hug! =p)
-qingqing (((:
-justin (for all that u've said,that helped alot)
-val(for that call, i know u really couldnt do anything but hear me cry. but just being there was adequate)
-jere (for listening to all my nonsense on friday)
and to all the rest, like relatives and random friends, who bothered to call or ask about me.

congrats to all who did well and to all those who didnt do as well, life doesnt end there so keep moving forward, life still goes on (:

ok. now for an update of the past few days. actually i dun remember the last time i blogged.

work was ok today. except for the fact that i was falling asleep. maybe its a monday thing. monday blues probably. or maybe its just that i'm soooo lazy. haha. other than that, work was ok. i had plenty of things to do.

pig tan is using me! see. i have such a wonderful younger sister. she offered me a book to read. i was thinking, wah pig tan so nice. but actually, she wants me to help her to read so that i can tell her the outline of the story so that she can write a book review without reading that book.

SEE. i have a bad pet pig. hmph.

hmmm. i had lunch in coral recently. actually i didnt eat because i had no appetite. haha i just accompanied qiu xuan and ben to coral, before collecting results on friday. it was funny cos we graduated from coral consecutively and we were from mj too. so 3 different generations? haha. i miss coral!

ok to pizza party gang! shall we have dinner again soon? (: but not at the same place =p tell me okies? since it'll be holidays soon or maybe i should say since most of u are holidaying now.

i want to shop. but i have no money yet. and maybe when i do have my pay, i wont have access to it!

hmph. thats the bad thing when ur mum holds your bankbook and u have no atm card.

i want to watch movies too.

ok i want too many things.

i'm hard to satisfy. which is quite sad at times.