HELLO!
haha i'm back to blog agin.
well, its been alot of mugging so far.
i hope it'll be useful.
11 days to prelims.
1st paper -> econs paper 3.
thats gonna be one MOTIVATING paper.
but thats how its gonna be.
come to think of it, i havent studied for econs.
so far its only geog and maths.
economic geography.
see the contrast.
i'm amazed at myself.
i find economic geog interesting but i dun like econs.
there's definitely something really wrong with me.
but i dun really care. =p
an eventful week so far?
i guess it can be considered so.
there was val's birthday.
it's amazing how one can get so touched by the little things that others do.
i was on the bus today.
this little girl boarded the bus but she didnt have enough money in her ezlink card.
she approached the first lady she saw and asked if she had shillings to spare.
sadly she immediately said no.
then this little girl approached the next lady and that lady gave her the shillings unconditionally.
why the different reactions?
i wonder.
but that lady made a difference to that little girl's day.
it made me smile.
next time if someone were to approach you on the bus and ask for coins, would u do the same?
i would.
why?
because if it were to happen to me, i would so appreciate it if someone were to give me those coins.
it makes a difference.
i'm almost done with economic geog.
the rest of the human geog topics would be pretty easy to smoke thru i guess.
its all down to my physical geog.
me vs climate.
me vs hydrology.
i'll try.
rocks and landforms are part f me i guess.
can remember.
oh and there's coastal.
still need to memorise coral reef stuff.
and there's econs.
and more econs.
and i'm gonna drag myself to study it.
soon.
haha.
i went home early today.
after studying for 4 hours straight for geog.
** anyway, a random point, the school decided to have this emergency thing today.
at 9 plus.
i should have gone to school at 10.
something made me wanna go so early.
i wonder what that is.
continuing, i went to buy my lunch and went home.
then i wanted to go by the pool to study but it started to rain so i slept for like 40 mins.
when i woke up, it was still raining.
so i went to bath.
then i went down to study, even though it was still raining.
i did my maths for bout 2 hours plus, until it was too cold for me.
then at bout 8.30, i went down to study again.
but some cats decided to scare me.
i was studying when this cat suddenly jumped onto the chair next to mine.
and to make matters worse, the other table has another cat on the chair too.
so i went back home again.
and now i'm here!
haha.
i shall do maths again later.
i guess.
maybe i would be surprised.
maybe i would be happy.
maybe i would feel satisfied.
maybe i would be the happiest that i've ever been.
i wouldnt know unless it happens.
haha tmr's celebration for teachers day is in school.
i'm not surprised =p
hahahaha.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Thursday, August 17, 2006
17th August 2006
ahhhhhhhh! my right arm hurts. quite badly.
i shouldnt have swam.
so intensively.
hmph.
i think i pulled a muscle.
cos its damn pain.
ok. enough bout that. i had a happy day today. PE was fun. i did random stuff with lappie. first we decided to provide elicia with moral support but we ended up not doing so. so we went for one round around the track thing. i skipped. lappie had a slow walk. and we played with mimosas (until i realised that there were ppl playing soccer in the field and i quickly moved away to avoid getting hit by the ball) and collected flowers. then we went to the fitness corner. and we went to the basketball court then back to the fitness corner. i had a good laugh from what isabelle was saying. she's funny. =p then we had a long and draggy maths lecture and after which there was GP.
miss huda was talking about this essay question. the question was:"Is the idea of having one partner for life still a realistic one?" i believe it is a realistic idea. but amazingly there were more points that are against this idea. which was pretty interesting for me. she was saying that the modern society is currently very time consuming and stressful and stuff. and that the society is more open minded. also there is the mass media that plays a part. and the last point was technology. that point was kinda interesting. she was saying that smses and the internet makes it easier for people to have affairs. saying that people could send flirtatious smses and stuff. its kinda true. but well what do u think? is the idea still a realistic one?
after school, i went to make new specs! haha. its something that is different. i guess. but i think its nice (= i spent abit too much time choosing it and was stuck between the pink frameless one and the dark purple framed one. haha. in the end i decided on the dark purple one. heehee.
and as i am typing, my arm still hurts. when i sms, it hurts too. this is so crappy. i should start studying. haha. okies take care!
i shouldnt have swam.
so intensively.
hmph.
i think i pulled a muscle.
cos its damn pain.
ok. enough bout that. i had a happy day today. PE was fun. i did random stuff with lappie. first we decided to provide elicia with moral support but we ended up not doing so. so we went for one round around the track thing. i skipped. lappie had a slow walk. and we played with mimosas (until i realised that there were ppl playing soccer in the field and i quickly moved away to avoid getting hit by the ball) and collected flowers. then we went to the fitness corner. and we went to the basketball court then back to the fitness corner. i had a good laugh from what isabelle was saying. she's funny. =p then we had a long and draggy maths lecture and after which there was GP.
miss huda was talking about this essay question. the question was:"Is the idea of having one partner for life still a realistic one?" i believe it is a realistic idea. but amazingly there were more points that are against this idea. which was pretty interesting for me. she was saying that the modern society is currently very time consuming and stressful and stuff. and that the society is more open minded. also there is the mass media that plays a part. and the last point was technology. that point was kinda interesting. she was saying that smses and the internet makes it easier for people to have affairs. saying that people could send flirtatious smses and stuff. its kinda true. but well what do u think? is the idea still a realistic one?
after school, i went to make new specs! haha. its something that is different. i guess. but i think its nice (= i spent abit too much time choosing it and was stuck between the pink frameless one and the dark purple framed one. haha. in the end i decided on the dark purple one. heehee.
and as i am typing, my arm still hurts. when i sms, it hurts too. this is so crappy. i should start studying. haha. okies take care!
Monday, August 14, 2006
14th August
ok i'm so not supposed to be online. but then again, i just felt like blogging. i feel so cold in the aircon room. anyway today was fun. i was quite hyper. i ran. 3 rounds. without feeling tired. i think i'm going crazy. and i actually managed to study for bout 1 hour plus, doing my maths diligently( i suppose =p) and the stats lectures are beginning to come back to me. i see some hope now. and i feel a little more motivated than before. i decided to just focus on studying and nothing else. just studying. and dreaming about studying psychology. i shall attempt to study more in school. it seems to be more effective and less distracting. rite.
ok another random point. sunday is miss huda's wedding lunch thing. it sounds nice. she invited us. and now i have to figure out what to wear. haha but thats the least of my worries. =p
okies back to studying!
ok another random point. sunday is miss huda's wedding lunch thing. it sounds nice. she invited us. and now i have to figure out what to wear. haha but thats the least of my worries. =p
okies back to studying!
Friday, August 11, 2006
11th August 2006
ok another random point.
i feel guilty for not mugging,
and now i feel like doing intensive practice for maths.
maybe later.
i'll stay awake till i'm totally drained.
then i'll go sleep.
so if anyone's bored between now and later in the morning, feel free to sms.
i'll glady amuse u.
and another note, i'll be attempting to mug for the next couple of weeks so not may entries will be posted (: u wanna noe bout my well being, just sms. my new number ok. heehee.
i feel guilty for not mugging,
and now i feel like doing intensive practice for maths.
maybe later.
i'll stay awake till i'm totally drained.
then i'll go sleep.
so if anyone's bored between now and later in the morning, feel free to sms.
i'll glady amuse u.
and another note, i'll be attempting to mug for the next couple of weeks so not may entries will be posted (: u wanna noe bout my well being, just sms. my new number ok. heehee.
11th August 2006
its another thinking too much day for me. so bear with me. if not, dun bother to read the entry.
since yesterday, i started thinking. cos val wanted some adjectives for her song composing. then we started talking about the past. so many things have happened and gone. not forgotten though.
**betrayal**
**hurt**
**test of trustworthiness**
**love**
**rejection**
**success**
**failures**
**losses**
**choices**
there's so many many more but i cant list them all. its just all flowing back. everything that has happened since i stepped into coral. until now. so many things have changed. friendships were formed and some tragically lost but yet found again after time. enemies made. hatred formed, many forgotten. its so hard to forget those happy times i had in choir and with the many people i can call my friends. times in the prefectorial board. fights/ conflicts i created with them. the constant arguments that were made by me. all my nonsensical nonsense. i miss those times. all the camps and gazing at the stars with samantha. at the parade square in the middle of the night. the choir camp that was planned by me and khalis and jere and jamie. that was the best camp ever. the games we played. the nite walk was funny. the campfire was fantastic. everything was nice. and i still remember we were sleeping at the basketball court. there are still so many other things. the choir practices, with the late mdm ong. those were the best. those will never ever be forgotten. the hard work put in to do our best for syf. but we still got bronze but it was the experience that was priceless i guess. the constant practices we had to put in to do our best for the syf opening, performances and stuff. the musical, we did in my last year. though it wasnt that successful, i so enjoyed myself. i may have been quite irritating while ordering the members around but its my duty i guess. thats all bout my choir experience in coral. all the memories all here with me. always kept close.
studies and stuff was the least of my worries. though there was constant inflow of stress from my parents, afraid that i was spending too much time with school activities (when now i come to think of it, it really feels like i have spent alot of time with the school activities but i had so much fun). they put so much stress on my level positions, constantly pushing me for better results (though they dun say it, i feel the pressure). so many many things. the scoldings i used to get when my level position was above 80th position out of the 200 students there were. my dad always made it a point to compare. i couldnt do anything but study harder i guess.
now things are so different. there's no such thing as level positions. no more scoldings from my daddy when i do badly. he just talks to me. nags at me. sometimes i wish he would just scold me so badly that i feel motivated to study. theres no motivation for me to study now. though i want so badly to study psychology in NUS. i see no meanign in doing so. i wonder why. maybe its the constant failing. making my future look so bleak. i seriously doubt i can make it. i really wonder. i really wonder what i will do if i ever fail. i will disappoint the people who had faith in me. my dad and mum. my relatives. but most importantly i will disappoint myself.
the things that lie beyond that smile.
smiles. laughter. tears of joy. signs of happiness that ppl see almost everyday. yet deep inside of me i feel no such happiness. sometimes laughing feels more like a chore then a natural reaction to me. why? i dunno myself. maybe i have just kept too much in me. i see no point in telling everyone my troubles, the emotions i feel inside anymore. no one would ever ever understand i guess. i keep so much inside that i have sudden outbreaks of tears like the one had on 02082006. that was sudden. it was the breaking point. and now i'm back to keeping things to myself again. its just me. and my bad habits.
everything's happening so quickly. there's like less than a month to prelims and after that maybe about a month to As. i'm so not prepared. and now i'm thinking about other things that do not have anything to do with my studies. i took my memories. of the past heartbreaks (or maybe the hearts that i have broken). i threw them away. but i realised that i couldnt let go. there are still so many smses that i'm keeping. the longest one i've kept is the one u sent me on 18012005. that was the beginning of last year. its been so so long. and i wanna let go. NOW. but its so hard. and i sometimes ask myself "are u feeling the same way too?" i dunno if i want to know the answer to that question. i think i have found someone else. like i say, i think. cos i'm not too sure myself. about this new someone, i hope its not a one sided thing. i seriously hope so. so if it really is a one sided thing, please at least have the courtesy to tell me so. i dun think i have the strength to take the rejection.
betrayal. one thing that i hate the most. its been a long time since that incident. but its somehow still quite fresh in my mind. secrets. backstabbing. ignorance. and it all left bad impressions of me in the minds of ppl. i became the "bad one" over a short period of time. that year was the worst year i had to go thru. but its all over rite? i thank my lucky stars for all those who were standing by me and helping me thru those times. (:
all the very random stuff that i'm feeling now. they may not have links to each other but ya, thats me.
=====
ok enough randomness from me. today the doctor gave me 42 tablets to last me for the next 6 weeks. he seems to know when i dun have to go to school cos the next appointment is a non schooling day too. its so amazing. it was the same doctor that looked so blur the other time i went for the check up. waited so long for my turn. thank goodness i had company :) someone who made me walk the long way to the TB centre. and discovered that i was afraid of tickles. but then again he was good company i guess. thanks again!
to val (if u ever read this =p), things dun always go the way u want them to. and also everything happens for a reason! just retake and dun put too much stress on yourself. and dun focus too much on that subject only k? heehee take care and i'll give u a letter soon!
okies to everyone take care and smile always!
since yesterday, i started thinking. cos val wanted some adjectives for her song composing. then we started talking about the past. so many things have happened and gone. not forgotten though.
**betrayal**
**hurt**
**test of trustworthiness**
**love**
**rejection**
**success**
**failures**
**losses**
**choices**
there's so many many more but i cant list them all. its just all flowing back. everything that has happened since i stepped into coral. until now. so many things have changed. friendships were formed and some tragically lost but yet found again after time. enemies made. hatred formed, many forgotten. its so hard to forget those happy times i had in choir and with the many people i can call my friends. times in the prefectorial board. fights/ conflicts i created with them. the constant arguments that were made by me. all my nonsensical nonsense. i miss those times. all the camps and gazing at the stars with samantha. at the parade square in the middle of the night. the choir camp that was planned by me and khalis and jere and jamie. that was the best camp ever. the games we played. the nite walk was funny. the campfire was fantastic. everything was nice. and i still remember we were sleeping at the basketball court. there are still so many other things. the choir practices, with the late mdm ong. those were the best. those will never ever be forgotten. the hard work put in to do our best for syf. but we still got bronze but it was the experience that was priceless i guess. the constant practices we had to put in to do our best for the syf opening, performances and stuff. the musical, we did in my last year. though it wasnt that successful, i so enjoyed myself. i may have been quite irritating while ordering the members around but its my duty i guess. thats all bout my choir experience in coral. all the memories all here with me. always kept close.
studies and stuff was the least of my worries. though there was constant inflow of stress from my parents, afraid that i was spending too much time with school activities (when now i come to think of it, it really feels like i have spent alot of time with the school activities but i had so much fun). they put so much stress on my level positions, constantly pushing me for better results (though they dun say it, i feel the pressure). so many many things. the scoldings i used to get when my level position was above 80th position out of the 200 students there were. my dad always made it a point to compare. i couldnt do anything but study harder i guess.
now things are so different. there's no such thing as level positions. no more scoldings from my daddy when i do badly. he just talks to me. nags at me. sometimes i wish he would just scold me so badly that i feel motivated to study. theres no motivation for me to study now. though i want so badly to study psychology in NUS. i see no meanign in doing so. i wonder why. maybe its the constant failing. making my future look so bleak. i seriously doubt i can make it. i really wonder. i really wonder what i will do if i ever fail. i will disappoint the people who had faith in me. my dad and mum. my relatives. but most importantly i will disappoint myself.
the things that lie beyond that smile.
smiles. laughter. tears of joy. signs of happiness that ppl see almost everyday. yet deep inside of me i feel no such happiness. sometimes laughing feels more like a chore then a natural reaction to me. why? i dunno myself. maybe i have just kept too much in me. i see no point in telling everyone my troubles, the emotions i feel inside anymore. no one would ever ever understand i guess. i keep so much inside that i have sudden outbreaks of tears like the one had on 02082006. that was sudden. it was the breaking point. and now i'm back to keeping things to myself again. its just me. and my bad habits.
everything's happening so quickly. there's like less than a month to prelims and after that maybe about a month to As. i'm so not prepared. and now i'm thinking about other things that do not have anything to do with my studies. i took my memories. of the past heartbreaks (or maybe the hearts that i have broken). i threw them away. but i realised that i couldnt let go. there are still so many smses that i'm keeping. the longest one i've kept is the one u sent me on 18012005. that was the beginning of last year. its been so so long. and i wanna let go. NOW. but its so hard. and i sometimes ask myself "are u feeling the same way too?" i dunno if i want to know the answer to that question. i think i have found someone else. like i say, i think. cos i'm not too sure myself. about this new someone, i hope its not a one sided thing. i seriously hope so. so if it really is a one sided thing, please at least have the courtesy to tell me so. i dun think i have the strength to take the rejection.
betrayal. one thing that i hate the most. its been a long time since that incident. but its somehow still quite fresh in my mind. secrets. backstabbing. ignorance. and it all left bad impressions of me in the minds of ppl. i became the "bad one" over a short period of time. that year was the worst year i had to go thru. but its all over rite? i thank my lucky stars for all those who were standing by me and helping me thru those times. (:
all the very random stuff that i'm feeling now. they may not have links to each other but ya, thats me.
=====
ok enough randomness from me. today the doctor gave me 42 tablets to last me for the next 6 weeks. he seems to know when i dun have to go to school cos the next appointment is a non schooling day too. its so amazing. it was the same doctor that looked so blur the other time i went for the check up. waited so long for my turn. thank goodness i had company :) someone who made me walk the long way to the TB centre. and discovered that i was afraid of tickles. but then again he was good company i guess. thanks again!
to val (if u ever read this =p), things dun always go the way u want them to. and also everything happens for a reason! just retake and dun put too much stress on yourself. and dun focus too much on that subject only k? heehee take care and i'll give u a letter soon!
okies to everyone take care and smile always!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
10th August 2006
ok. this entry is for VALERIE and QIUXUAN who have been asking for an entry. i not see free to update day but i'll try to update as many times as possible okies?
lets start with today. i woke up at like 8 plus to do my econs. i realised that i dun really noe anything. i thought i knew but i actually dun. so screwed up. and there's less than a month to the beginning of prelims. i'm starting to feel the urgency to study. cos its like after prelims there's only bout 1 month before the actual A levels. anyway after doing econs for like 2 hours plus i gave up. the case studies are hard. and the essays that miss lim gave made no sense to me. at 2, joey, val and QX came. we were supposed to study. i was studying at first. about the ITCZ and stuff. then i read through about the different kinds of atmospheric stuff. and after eating lunch with them at bout 3 plus, i couldnt really think anymore. so i started to copy qns from the past year papers and analysing them so that i knew what to actually focus on. and we talked and talked and joey spread her 'dun feel like studying' mood to everyone and val started composing songs and QX kept going on with her 'ammonia, nitrate....'. Today's meeting up was great. we should really do it again. but maybe we should do it differently--if u get what i mean.
so now i'm home - alone. my parents out to see the chinese physician. pig tan is out watching singapore idol. belly is in school. and i'm stuck at home. and i'm supposed to be studying. cos i wanna watch tv later. the singapore idol, 9pm show and project runway! haha ok that was random.
8th of august. national day eve. had a cousins outing. heehee. went for sakae sushi lunch and abit of shopping. then went to watch the fireworks at esplanade area, somewhere near gluttons bay. there were so many ppl that it was kinda scary but it was worth the trip. the fireworks were beautiful! i wanna see tomorrow's one but i doubt i'll be allowed to go out. the trip home was bad. there were so many ppl everywhere. but still managed to make our way back. i came home with many blisters. i wore the wrong shoes out. for the entire day. hais. i learnt my lesson. dun wear that pair of shoes for intensive walking.
tomorrow is gonna be another long long day. but i'm looking forward to it. (:
lets start with today. i woke up at like 8 plus to do my econs. i realised that i dun really noe anything. i thought i knew but i actually dun. so screwed up. and there's less than a month to the beginning of prelims. i'm starting to feel the urgency to study. cos its like after prelims there's only bout 1 month before the actual A levels. anyway after doing econs for like 2 hours plus i gave up. the case studies are hard. and the essays that miss lim gave made no sense to me. at 2, joey, val and QX came. we were supposed to study. i was studying at first. about the ITCZ and stuff. then i read through about the different kinds of atmospheric stuff. and after eating lunch with them at bout 3 plus, i couldnt really think anymore. so i started to copy qns from the past year papers and analysing them so that i knew what to actually focus on. and we talked and talked and joey spread her 'dun feel like studying' mood to everyone and val started composing songs and QX kept going on with her 'ammonia, nitrate....'. Today's meeting up was great. we should really do it again. but maybe we should do it differently--if u get what i mean.
so now i'm home - alone. my parents out to see the chinese physician. pig tan is out watching singapore idol. belly is in school. and i'm stuck at home. and i'm supposed to be studying. cos i wanna watch tv later. the singapore idol, 9pm show and project runway! haha ok that was random.
8th of august. national day eve. had a cousins outing. heehee. went for sakae sushi lunch and abit of shopping. then went to watch the fireworks at esplanade area, somewhere near gluttons bay. there were so many ppl that it was kinda scary but it was worth the trip. the fireworks were beautiful! i wanna see tomorrow's one but i doubt i'll be allowed to go out. the trip home was bad. there were so many ppl everywhere. but still managed to make our way back. i came home with many blisters. i wore the wrong shoes out. for the entire day. hais. i learnt my lesson. dun wear that pair of shoes for intensive walking.
tomorrow is gonna be another long long day. but i'm looking forward to it. (:
Friday, August 04, 2006
4th August 2006
AND I"M BACK TO BLOG!
ok. lets see. i told myself no more Fs anymore. and guess wat. my 1st lecture test after mid years i got an F. again! time to create some plan like maybe some plan to save myself. the save myslef plan. i shall study in school everyday after school. i will do all the maths that i can find. but before that i have to complete all my tutorials and stuff. then i have to go for all the consultations that i can get. ( my dad is seriously pestering me to get consultation periods with every subject teacher, i guess he feels the stress too, after talking to miss lai ) anyway back to the topic. and my weekends are reserved for geog and econs. to do alot alot of essays and drqs for geog and alot alot of memorising. not as if my brain is a sponge but then again it has to be done i guess. no choice. i wanna do psychology! ya. so no other choice. i was telling pig tan that if i cant be a psychologist, i will be a chef. she started laughing at me. well, i dunno. its just me. argh digressing again. and my gp. i shall get hold of many many compres to improve. thats the plan. the only thing stopping me is my energy level. i have a great tendency to sleep whenever i dun wanna study and i cant sit still when i'm studying and i start munching stuff when i'm studying. ( my mummy bought me chocolates to make me study at home ) so the chocolates are easily available to me and i keep eating and i'm growing fat. i'm too lazy to swim. basically to exercise so i should eat less. haha. i'm talking rubbish. as of always.
ok. lets see. i told myself no more Fs anymore. and guess wat. my 1st lecture test after mid years i got an F. again! time to create some plan like maybe some plan to save myself. the save myslef plan. i shall study in school everyday after school. i will do all the maths that i can find. but before that i have to complete all my tutorials and stuff. then i have to go for all the consultations that i can get. ( my dad is seriously pestering me to get consultation periods with every subject teacher, i guess he feels the stress too, after talking to miss lai ) anyway back to the topic. and my weekends are reserved for geog and econs. to do alot alot of essays and drqs for geog and alot alot of memorising. not as if my brain is a sponge but then again it has to be done i guess. no choice. i wanna do psychology! ya. so no other choice. i was telling pig tan that if i cant be a psychologist, i will be a chef. she started laughing at me. well, i dunno. its just me. argh digressing again. and my gp. i shall get hold of many many compres to improve. thats the plan. the only thing stopping me is my energy level. i have a great tendency to sleep whenever i dun wanna study and i cant sit still when i'm studying and i start munching stuff when i'm studying. ( my mummy bought me chocolates to make me study at home ) so the chocolates are easily available to me and i keep eating and i'm growing fat. i'm too lazy to swim. basically to exercise so i should eat less. haha. i'm talking rubbish. as of always.
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