its one of those days when i cant stop thinking. sometimes i wish val could be here to lecture me to stop thinking. val see how impt u are =p
something that i'm supposed to forget. so as to move on. but it keeps coming but. not frequently though. just occassionally. why does it happen this way? why cant u get out of my mind? why cant i stop thinking? why? maybe i should find something else to think about. maybe that would solve the problem. i hope it will. so the next thing is that wat else can i think about? nothing seems nice to think about. all the nice things i think about seem to be really unrealistic and it feels like some kind of fantasy. one thought leads to another. and another thought leads to so many more thoughts. this is really irritating.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
9th July 2006
went out yest. with whole family+qingqing. went to orchard to shop. and then went for qingqing's recital thing and then went for dinner. woke up at 8 to study on saturday and i did the MYE 2006 maths paper 1 all over again until qns 8 and i could do most of it. its so frustrating! it always happens. hais. my daddy says i'm fat and need to exercise more. hais. i suggested to him that i might be staying in school to study after school. i slept thru the most of today. then just before we went for dinner he says that i really need to study more in school so i will sleep less and study more.
thursday during maths, miss lai came and started talking about results. maths results. then thursday miss wong talked about econs studying and stuff. guess really will have to study and study. sacrifices will be made and a miracle should be created. no, a miracle must be created to save me.
mugging starts tomorrow. anyone wanna join me? =p
thursday during maths, miss lai came and started talking about results. maths results. then thursday miss wong talked about econs studying and stuff. guess really will have to study and study. sacrifices will be made and a miracle should be created. no, a miracle must be created to save me.
mugging starts tomorrow. anyone wanna join me? =p
Friday, July 07, 2006
7th July 2006
just had a very fulfilling dinner though i didnt have much appetite. my appetite seems to have disappeared since last week. its scary somehow. but then again its just me.
lets me talk about thursday. in the morning, the clouds were beautiful though i felt as if they were about to fall onto me. but it was an unusual sight i guess. its because of the monsoon winds as i have learnt today. then there was GP and we received our essay back. i din do well. i expected it. apparently i did a wrong structure for my essay and got penalised for it. then there was maths lecture. they started on some differential equation thing. i know nothing. and i got cut by paper. horrible. then econs there was this test. i din complete it. as of always.
i shalll continue another time with this entry =p
lets me talk about thursday. in the morning, the clouds were beautiful though i felt as if they were about to fall onto me. but it was an unusual sight i guess. its because of the monsoon winds as i have learnt today. then there was GP and we received our essay back. i din do well. i expected it. apparently i did a wrong structure for my essay and got penalised for it. then there was maths lecture. they started on some differential equation thing. i know nothing. and i got cut by paper. horrible. then econs there was this test. i din complete it. as of always.
i shalll continue another time with this entry =p
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
4th July 2006
ok i'm finally in the mood to blog.
mid years are finally over! now the "best" thing is waiting for the results. well i hope for the best. maths was bad today. horribly irritating paper. its over. no more talking bout the past.
anyway i've just finished reading another danielle steel book titled "second chance". its a story bout giving people a second chance to prove themselves. the story started with fiona who was a editor for a popular magazine. she met this guy john who was really nice and tried to do all he could to win her heart and stuff. fiona was afraid of marriage and stuff cos of her past, her parents. but she got persuaded by john to get married. after they made the commitment, both of them were too busy with their own lives that they hardly saw each other. and john who promised that he wouldnt leave her for anything, filed for a divorce. after the divorce both people lived separate lives and tried to forget bout each other. and one year and a half passed and they met each other unknowingly. and they fell in love again. fiona was unwilling to forgive john but john wanted the second chance from her. in the end, he managed to persuade her and he got his second chance. and the story ends.
sometimes i wonder if second chances are beneficial to everyone. what if a second chance was given and a third chance is needed? do we continue to give these chances? or do we live on and forget about the past and move on to the present and the future, with the hurt that continuously stays there? too many chances leads to the problem of taking things for granted. whats the point of giving people the chance when they dun ever cherish them. another thing to ponder about. i liked the story though. i love her stories.
i'm going to the library tomorrow. yay. i shall read as many books as i can within this week. and next week onwards i shall fully focus on doing well for A levels. since the 9 o'clock show on channel 8 will be ending. and there will be no shows to distract me except for the few like desperate housewives, project runway, charmed. thats about it i guess. i watched the finale of the final season of charmed. it has such a lovely ending. but i missed so much of the middle episodes which were shown on starworld so i shall try to catch them on channel 5.
i'm bored. hais. no books to read. no studying. haha i'm bored.
ok i shall stop here. to everyone: take care.
especially for val: do ur best no matter wat others might say, i'm always here supporting u (: cheers!
mid years are finally over! now the "best" thing is waiting for the results. well i hope for the best. maths was bad today. horribly irritating paper. its over. no more talking bout the past.
anyway i've just finished reading another danielle steel book titled "second chance". its a story bout giving people a second chance to prove themselves. the story started with fiona who was a editor for a popular magazine. she met this guy john who was really nice and tried to do all he could to win her heart and stuff. fiona was afraid of marriage and stuff cos of her past, her parents. but she got persuaded by john to get married. after they made the commitment, both of them were too busy with their own lives that they hardly saw each other. and john who promised that he wouldnt leave her for anything, filed for a divorce. after the divorce both people lived separate lives and tried to forget bout each other. and one year and a half passed and they met each other unknowingly. and they fell in love again. fiona was unwilling to forgive john but john wanted the second chance from her. in the end, he managed to persuade her and he got his second chance. and the story ends.
sometimes i wonder if second chances are beneficial to everyone. what if a second chance was given and a third chance is needed? do we continue to give these chances? or do we live on and forget about the past and move on to the present and the future, with the hurt that continuously stays there? too many chances leads to the problem of taking things for granted. whats the point of giving people the chance when they dun ever cherish them. another thing to ponder about. i liked the story though. i love her stories.
i'm going to the library tomorrow. yay. i shall read as many books as i can within this week. and next week onwards i shall fully focus on doing well for A levels. since the 9 o'clock show on channel 8 will be ending. and there will be no shows to distract me except for the few like desperate housewives, project runway, charmed. thats about it i guess. i watched the finale of the final season of charmed. it has such a lovely ending. but i missed so much of the middle episodes which were shown on starworld so i shall try to catch them on channel 5.
i'm bored. hais. no books to read. no studying. haha i'm bored.
ok i shall stop here. to everyone: take care.
especially for val: do ur best no matter wat others might say, i'm always here supporting u (: cheers!
Monday, July 03, 2006
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