13th December 2008

it has been a horribly long time since i last blogged!

well its the holidays now.

exams are finally over.

it turns out i didnt do very well for ugc(world civilizations).

but it doesnt really affect me cos i'm really bad at civilizations.

so i am praying very hard that the rest of my grades will be decent.

cos i cant afford to let my gpa drop anymore!

ok enough whining about school.

i've been working the past few days.

i miss working with children.

even though some of them are really naughty/mischevious.

it's nice knowing that they still remember me!

they come to me and tell me how much they miss me.

they're all soooooooo cute!

sometimes i wish i did early childhood education.

but then again i am pretty happy with what i'm doing now (:








it has been so long since i met jere and gang.

i cant wait for the 19th!

i miss you guys so much!

i was looking at the photos we took a while ago.



no joey though.

and another one!



without qiuxuan this time.

CAN'T WAIT FOR FRIDAY!

it seems that the following days wil be filled with christmas treats!

so i have to work extra hard to get presents for people.

but the thing is that i cant stand shopping when there's so many people around.

i will think of a solution to that.

and i'm going overseas soon!

so many things to look forward to!

(:

and somehow i cant wait for school to start.

COS i cant stand being so cooped up at home.

8th November 2008

COMMS PROJECT IS FINALLY OVERRRRRRRRRRRR!

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

no more tahaning that weird emo person.



so its the final few weeks of the semester.

and semester 2 will soon be over.

time is once again passing by sooo quickly.

sometimes i feel that i'm not enjoying myself enough.

i feel so buried under all the work and unneeded stress.

i hate it when i give myself unneeded stress.

i have to complete my research paper by monday.

i have to write like 8 pages and i'm only at 2.

i'm so so so so so so so so so so so screwed.

i still have to study for my japanese class tmr.

i shouldn't be wasting time blogging.

but then again i dont feel like doing my research paper.

i hate citing, quoting, paraphrasing.

troublesome.

BUT I HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE.

once next week is over, there will be no more work for english!

and no more english for the rest of my studies here!

YAY!

okies time to do work!

-toodles!

25th October 2008

AHHHHHHHH!

i need many many many many comments for my academic blog!!!!!

well actually only 7 comments for each post.

so please please please please please help to comment k?

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THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO ALREADY COMMENTED!

i will forever be grateful to those who have commented!





I WATCHED HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3 YESTERDAY!

it was nice!

loved it!

it was nice to see that everyone got into good colleges.

and the sacrifice that troy made for gabriella was soooooooooooo sweet!

ok i shall not talk about it anymore.

mummy said i have too many clothes now.

i shall find another way to feel less sad when i am sad.

shopping seems to be the only thing that makes me happy.

and i shall cab less too.

spending too much on cabs.

maybe i should study more.

i still need my 3.5 for GPA.

okies.

TIME TO STUDY HEALTH PSYCHOLOGY!

19th October 2008

HEY GUYS!

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IT'S HERE!

THANKS!

I NEED LIKE AT LEAST 7 COMMENTS FOR EACH POST SO PLEASE HELP!

THANK YOU!

LOVE YOU GUYS (:

11th October 2008

I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW!

because everything is going to get better!

and i'm going to watch mamma mia!

i havent watch a movie on sunday for such a long time!

ooooh.

i still have comms to do.

and english.

and MY JAPANESE HOMEWORK!

which is due tomorrow.

i'm so dead.

i shall do comms first then english then japanese.

i dun need to sleep tonight!

):

but i can get it done soon i suppose!

(:

10th October 2008

I'VE NEVER FELT SO ANGRY BEFORE!

AHHHHHHH!

some people just like to take things for granted.

some people just dont learn to treasure the chances given to them.

some people just dont seem to realise that they are at fault.

some people just dont realise that they are so SCREWED UP.

i hate it when people make use of me.

i hate it when i am accused of something i didnt do.

well this time i get accused for NOT DOING SOMETHING THAT I DID.

it would be alright if it was just a small matter.

BUT MY GRADES ARE CONCERNED!

and i totally HATE people who try to ruin my grades.

i dont understand how people can be SO ungrateful.

if i didnt remind you, you wouldnt have done it.

if i didnt care, i wouldnt have asked you to do it.

AHHHHH!

i dont understand why this is happening.

shouldnt people our age be more responsible?

and you're actually older than me!

i cant believe i thought that you were nice.

i cant believe i was so nice to you!

and this is how you repay me.

I CANT BELIEVE THIS.

you are going to get what you deserve.

JUST WAIT AND SEE!



it seems that everything is going down.

but i guess things will get better.

i will be optimistic.

VERY optimistic.



i was almost late to class today.

i was practically running up to the 3rd floor.

i will not leave the house late again.

it's horribly tiring.



i watched house bunny on wednesday.

it wasnt as nice as i thought it would be.

but i enjoyed the company!



and i will make sure we meet next week val!

I WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN!

(:

8th October 2008

because i'm tired.
because i didn't do my best.
because i didn't put in the effort i'm supposed to.
because i took time for granted.
because i'm too easily distracted.
because it seems that i'm not moving any closer to my goal.
because i'm losing track of what i want.
because i know i'm not going to do well.
because i know that isn't supposed to be the case.
because i can't stand smiling and laughing when i don't feel it inside.
because i can't pretend any longer.
because i demand too much from myself.
because i want to prove something to myself.
because i hate falling behind.
because i hate to disappoint.
because i feel empty inside.
because shopping isn't helping.
because i'm losing it.
because it's all my fault.

that's why.



She had been rocking herself back and forth, fighting the tears that threatened to fall, swallowing the lump that threatened to rise in her throat, forcing back the thoughts that threatened to drown her mind. It felt as though she were fighting everything right now. ... She felt she was always fighting, fighting, fighting. And now, here she sat, fighting her very own emotions.

She felt as if she had been through a hundred rounds in the ring, as if she'd taken every punch,thump, and kick her opponents could throw at her. Now she was tired. Her muscles ached, her defense was falling, and her wounds weren't healing so quickly.A cat leaped from the high wall that separated Elizabeth from her neighbours and landed in her garden. It glanced at Elizabeth, chin held high, eye glowing in the darkness. It slowly walked across the grass, without a care in the world. So sure of itself, so confident, so full of its own self-importance. It jumped onto the opposite wall and disappeared into the night. She envied its ability to come and go as it pleased, without owing anybody anything, not even those closest who loved and cared for it.

extracted from IF YOU COULD SEE ME NOW cecelia ahern.

28th September 2008

it's almost the end of the month!

time is flying past so quickly but i'm glad it is!

many many things are happening.

i really cant stand this time of the semester.

mid terms are stressful.

and it's kinda scary that i'm not exactly prepared for it.

boo.

i dun like comms.

but i'll have to start loving it in order to pass it!

ok enough about school.



i was reading MERCY by jodi picoult.

i was close to tears.

i cannot imagine my myself killing the person whom i love the most because that person is suffering from a terminal disease.

but when i think about it, if i'm the person who is dying from that terminal disease i would not want to endure all the pain that is accompanied with the disease.

i would want to end the pain as soon as possible.

so its kinda scary that it really could happen in real life.

its touching how the guy fulfilled his wife's wishes, of killing her, because of love.

the power of love is amazing.

but its not a true story.

i wonder if it ever did happen to anyone.

or maybe i should say if it would happen to anyone in future.



the F1 thing is NOISYYYYYYYY.

everyone here seems to be watching it.

so it feels like echoey.

i can hear it from the living hall (i'm in my dining hall).

and i can hear it from outside.

why do ppl on their tvs so loud?

NOISYYYYYYY.



oh i have yet to watch vexille.

some anime that i'm supposed to watch for comms.

i shall go watch it now if not i will be completely clueless for the meeting tmr!

23rd September 2008

its starting to get busy busy busy!

mid terms are coming!

and i hope i can do well for midterms.

i have a love hate relationship with mcq tests.

i hate it because i cant seem to do well for it but i love it cos it saves me the hassle of writing essays.

how sad can things get?

boooooo.

please help me comment on my academic blog!!!

oh and let me know if the content is toooooo boring~!

16th September 2008

because i'm lazy to read my textbooks.

because i'm lazy to figure out how to answer the questions for the UGC thing.

because i can't find anything else to do.

that's why i'm blogging!

oh please please please please please help me to comment on my blog!

it'll be really really helpful!

its http://pink--ness.blogspot.com

thank you!

but i can't figure out what to blog about.

works piling up and up and up.

so it explains why i dont blog that much.

i hope everyone is doing fine and i'll pull out time to meet special people like val soon.

(:

12th September 2008

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO QIU XUAN!

i havent updated because i dont feel like updating and because i've been really busy.

my life now is like school on mondays wednesdays and fridays and work on tuesdays thursdays and saturdays.

so thats about it.

i just saw qiuxuan's blog.

its not updated regularly!

and you shouldnt be even asking me to update mine!!!!!

must be fair hor.








anyway i'm taking communications now and i have to o this blog thing which comprises of 20% of my final score!

so if all of you are kind enough to hlp improve my final grades, do drop by my communications blog and leave intellectual comments!

http://pink--ness.blogspot.com

and if you guys are really free, you can all click on the links and help to comment on my other friends blogs too!

thanks so much!!!!!!!!!!!

18th August 2008

PHOTOS!!!!

of the OOooOOOoooOOOooOoOO gang!

this is oO1 aka boss.


and the one with the funny look on her face is oO5 aka looloo.


that is oO3 aka the follower.


and thats oO4!


and finally group photo!
oO4,oO3,oO5,oO2 with oO1 hiding behind.no idea why.

18th August 2008

OK I'M BLOGGING COS VAL SAYS I SHOULD UPDATE REGULARLY.




its been holidays so far.

and its the final week of my 2 weeks long holidays.

i've been working ever since the exam week.

in the mornings from 7am to 10am.

sometimes till abit later depending on the amount of teachers available.

thats pretty much what i've been doing for most of my holidays.

i've been out with Oo gang on 8th aug and 13th aug.

I FEEL SO DEPRIVED OF MY HOLIDAY!!!!

i'm working in the mornings and sleeping most of the afternoons away.

if not i'll spend my afternoons with my mum.

i cant go out cos of some stupid unreasonable reason.

i still feel angry about it.

but i'm not supposed to blame anyone.

but i'm still soooooooo upset bout it.

BUT i still cant do anything bout it.

SOOOO i cant wait for school to start so i can get back some of my freedom.


met up with val and jere on fri after sooo long.

i decided that i will not try so hard to come up with a day where all 7 of us can make it.

SOOOO when all of u are free pls let me know.

all i know now is that jere is flying to places with khalis, val and qiuxuan are having exams, joey and jamie are somewhere.

so let me know when all of u can pull out time to meet up.

that is before khalis and jamie go for NS!

SO PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!!!!




i'm going to take JLPT 4!

though i dun feel like i'm good enough.

i think its worth a try.

i'm trying to memorise all the vocabulary and all.

its not that easy.

and i thot chinese was hard.

but i'm still working hard on it!

since i have no classes now.

trying to catch up with everything.

and soon i have to pay for another 10 lessons of jap.

another $400 gone.

but it's all worth it.

i think.





and its raining again!!!

i so love the rain.

been feeling sick the past few days.

it started with a sore throat then a runny nose then huge headaches.

and now i'm stuck with cough again.

i was trying to read a story to the students just now and i coughed my way thru it.

after that i joined some students who were playing at the home corner.

they kept making me "food".

they came up with weird stuff like egg juice and bread juice.

so i pretended to eat and all.

and they continued to feed me.

i told them if i eat so much i'll become fat.

and they said they wanted me to become fat.

and they started laughing amongst themselves.

and they said they wanted me to become fat like the kungfu panda.

those children made my day.

children are just so cute and innocent.

and i'm reminded why i still continue to work part time at where i'm working now.



i just finished reading damaged by cathay glass a few days ago.

it was really inspiring.

it somewhat made me wanna be a foster carer in future.

i wonder if there are foster carers in singapore.

it would be a nice thing to do though it does not provide a high pay.

money cannot buy things like that.

and children can be saved and protected in a way.

i'm now reading a book entitled ugly.

it's by constance briscoe.

i'm bout more than halfway thru it.

its really disturbing that it really happened to a person.

somehow reading how she got thru her ordeals made me realise again how lucky most of us are in our country.

i also wonder if there are any children suffering in silence.

these books really make me feel like doing extra well for my degree and complete all my studies to save these children who are abused by their own family.



and the rain has stopped!

but there's lightning.

the weather is confused.

it can decide if it wants to rain or not.

ok i shall stop talking nonsense!

and i will try to update regularly since val says i should.

so thank val if u also wanted regular updates from me.

29th July 2008

TOMORROW IS THE FINAL DAY OF ALL LESSONS FOR SEMESTER 1!!!!

how time flies.

like alr 13 weeks of school.

it ends as quickly as it started.

so much achieved in this semester i guess.

the best reward for me would be great friends!

a group of friends to look forward to going to class with!

1 semester down and 8 more semesters to go (i think).


holidays are coming!!!

meantime i just need to study really hard for my psych.

i hope i can get As for my english module and music module.

its a great start for me!!!

i'm glad that for once i didnt make the wrong choice.

(:


i shall organise a gathering for the 7 soon!

to celebrate khalis's birthday too!

i'm so looking forward to holidays.


ok for now i think i need sleep.

lack of it and my head is throbbing.

okies. TA TA!
















sometimes i cant help but wonder what i really mean to some people.
sometimes my mum makes me feel so insignificant, so unimportant but at the same time she expects so much from me.
sometimes i feel that i'm being treated unfairly but i cant be bothered to fight for fairness.
maybe its just for the best that i dn bother bout it right?

23rd July 2008

I HAD A WONDERFUL 20TH BIRTHDAY!!!!

AND I WOULD LIKE TO THANK THE ENTIRE OO GANG FOR THE SURPRISE!

TO SHE MIN, SOLEHA, WINNIE, CHLOEKI!

SO LOVE YOU GUYS!

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!!!!!!!

we had a nice lunch at sakura on monday.

and the girls gave me pink roses!!!

to think that the last time i received roses was back in 2006...

ok i shouldnt talk or even think about that anymore.

and a pretty bookmark that i cant bear to use.

and a pink handmade card by chloeki i think.

she is the funniest girl i have ever met.

and we went for a movie at cineleisure.

chloeki laughed so loudly!

thank goodness i was sitting far far away from her.

but still i was laughing cos she was laughing so loudly.

oh we took neoprints too.

and she min's shirt colour kept changing.

=p

shall upload photos another time when i get them.

and we went shopping at far east plaza.

i bought a nice white dress.

that i will wear soon when i get my contact lens that is taking ages to appear.

i also bought a little miss sunshine shirt.

and the next day winnie, chloeki and me wore the little miss sunshine shirt to school.

we were in red, yellow and green.

just like a traffic light.

it just reminds me of the joy of going to school!

so love them!

today was ok.

i bought a new book!

by my english instructor.

its titled "Windows to Southeast Asia".

i've read like close to 30 pages.

its like a compilation of articles by SEAsians.

the articles are like good.

i was supposed to like study during my break.

but i was like distracted and nth went inside my head.

not productive today.

but the quiz was alright.

(:

i just finished with a book titled "letters to sam"

its a book worth buying for all your loved ones!

it talked about altruistic love.

and i realised that its really lacking in today's society.

if everyone showed altruistic love, the world would be a much better place!

there would be no starving ppl or dying children or suffering ppl.

i've been thinking too much lately.

i can't seem to find anyone who can relate to whatever i'm doing and thinking about now.

all this thinking has made me really confused.

HOW!?!

i shall just live life as it is.

and i'll take one step at a time.

and face each obstacle as it comes.

and hope that everything goes well.

19th July 2008

YAY!

i'm finally done with my part for the psych assignment.

i feel so proud of myself!

its torturous to read about the different chemicals that are in the brain that causes different emotions in people.

and it took me 4 long long hours to compile everything.

i'm happy that i'm done.

now i'm left with my essay outline.

and my journal.

did i say that in my previous entry?

i think i did.

so here is concrete evidence that i love to procrastinate.

17th July 2008

so many things due soon!

cant wait for the semester to end!!!

i was so tired last night that i slept at close to 9 and i only woke up at 11 plus today!

i finally got my well deserved rest!

then its back to doing work.

I CAN DO IT!!!

everything will be over next week.

as in for music.

i wont have to face that stupid group leader ever again!

i will never ever do group stuff with him again!

but then again i got to know really nice people in my music group (:

ok i should stop blogging.

i shall finish my reflections and start on my essay outline for my persusive essay.

i was thinking of writing a persuasive essay to persuade people to use less of plastic bags.

ok i shall do that.

oh and i need to do my journal!

something about kidney donations or torture or freedom.

okies i'll be back to blog again later maybe (:

14th July 2008

another brand new week!

today was a draggyyyyyyyyyyyyy day.

i realised that there are so many deadlines to meet!

all the deadlines are next week.

soooooo irritating!

i'm feeing sad.

and i cant figure out why.

how much worse can my day get?

oh and i have a music quiz tmr that i have totally no idea what is going to be tested.

and i'm so lazy to study.

but i cant lose my A grade for my music so i'm going to be a good girl and i'm going to study my music.

something about baroque era and classical era and romantic era.

and i think i must know the different instruments that are played in a piece.

I'M IN SO MUCH TROUBLE!!!

but then again, it cant be that hard rite?



ok so i think we're not meeting on the 18th anymore.

cos khalis cant make it.

so jere is going to organise when we are gonna meet and stuff cos i'll be busy meeting my deadlines.




ok i'm going to study music now!

(:

10th July 2008

oh i so have no mood to write my essay.

i feel tired staring blankly at the computer screen.

and then i'll start to wonder how anyone can stare at the screen for so very long.

and after wondering i'll start thinking on how to continue on my essay.

then my mind will wander off again thinking about how my weekend will be.

and i'll start humming to the songs playing on my itunes.

afterwhich i have to remind myself that i have to finish my essay before the weekend as i will have to hand it in on monday and i'll have no time during the weekend to complete it.

oh thats a very long sentence!

it has been a really long week!

went for joey's birthday bbq on tuesday.

photos are on facebook!

let me put one here



(:

met up with val after so long.

QIUXUAN as usual didnt come for whatever reason she had.

which made me and val quite angry.

oh yes i got scared and irritated by this guy at the bus stop at downtown east.

i was sitting at the bus stop opposite downtown east waiting for val.

then while i was sitting there, listening to songs, this guy, i guess he's roughly about 12-14 yrs old, started asking the aunties at the bus stop for a dollar.

all the aunties shooed him away.

then he suddenly sat beside me.

and he asked me for a dollar.

feeling abit sympathetic towards him, i gave him a dollar.

when i did, he asked for 2 dollars.

then i was like thinking to myself... shouldnt he be grateful that i gave him a dollar?

then i ignored him.

just then more aunties came and he started asking them.

so i took the opportunity to go to the bus stop on the opposite side.

when i reached the other side, i saw that guy cursing and scolding the aunties cos they refused to give him money.

then he crossed the road to the bus stop that i was at.

i was like... i cant be that unlucky.

then he asked many ppl at the bus stop.

no one gave him money.

and he came back and sat beside me again!

i turned up the volume of my music so that i wouldnt hear him.

and he started to use his leg to nudge my bag.

and i ignored him.

i think he did that for 3 mins continuously.

i looked at him and rolled my eyes and got up and sat in between 2 ppl.

he looked angry.

then he approached the uncle beside me and asked for money.

the uncle gave him a dollar and then the uncle left.

so he sat there and took out his wallet.

and at that point of time i was like why is he asking for money then.

i felt slightly cheated.

but i decided that i did a good thing.

and before he could approach me again, val finally came.

this encounter made me pity this guy.

like what are his parents doing?

its kinda sad that he is actually bringing himself to that level of begging people for money at such a young age.

its not like he cant get a part time job to do or anything.

and the way the guy begged for money just reminded me of the way the beggars in china beg for money.

plain scary.

oh before meeting val i had the music presentation.

i felt that it was a total failure.

i hope that it wont affect my total score.

it would really really pull down my entire score if i do badly for it.


so i'll confirm that we'll be meeting on 18th july for dinner at the central at clarke quay ya?

that is to val, joey, jamie, jere, khalis and qiuxuan(it's ur very last chance to like redeem yourself; if not you'll really be blacklisted =p)

sms me to confirm okies?


many many things to do this month.

mainly i need to study for my finals in aug.

on 4th aug and 6th aug.

mus266 on one day and psych on the other.

need to plan my time really well.

to juggle studying for uni and jap and going out.

(:

wall e is coming out soon!

val does a really cute voice that imitates wall e.

=p



okies enough of me talking and talking.

i shall ty to continue with my essay.

or maybe i shall play some games first.

i doubt i'll be sleeping early tonight.

thank goodness i dun have to wake up early tmr.

6th July 2008

its gonna be a really busy month!

next week there'll be the music presentation.

and there's another assignment due on the 21st.

and there's finals at the beginning of next month.

i'm trying my best to study all the psych chapters that are taught.

its hard to relate and also hard to rmb.

now i rmb how tough studying is.



i cant wait for the music presentation to be over.

and i cant wait to meet val.

the last time i saw her was like just abit more than a month ago but it seems like forever.

8th July.

2 more days.

and i'm angry at the ppl who didnt reply my sms.

BAD PEOPLE.

jamie and khalis are BAD PEOPLE for not replying my sms.

BAD BAD PEOPLE.